Numbness

Have been feeling quite numb lately.
Depression suddenly kicked in on Thurs night&I was a mess.
Was so numb&scared. Txt my boyf but he didn't reply for ages.
Then on fri I txt my best friend&she did reply for hours.
Felt so aweful and scared.
Being numb is truely terrifying. Cried for hours on Thurs&Fri.
My boyf came round fri & gave me lotsa cuddles.
He was meant to leave early but I had a bad breakdown =s
So he stayed&we watched Prince of Persia.
Mum saw me crying when Levi brought me inside on fri night.
So had to tell her about the depression getting bad again. Didn't want to but I don't lie, so yeah =(
She mentioned counselling again. I just need to go to a better doc & get stronger meds.
Want to feel happy again. Not in so much pain then numb.
=(
Sorry for the sad post
Much love.
Misaki <3